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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:41

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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I was 9 years of age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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One cannot live in the past .

We all went to grammer schools

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But it wasn’t much.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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All the time i was locked up.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Why do I feel like something bad is going to happen to me?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I think the readers, may guess!

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I was seconnd youngest,

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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So, i spoilt her more .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I was scared of men, in general

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She wouldn,t have been !

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Who then, do I blame.?

She was in good health!

And i lived it daily.

Would this be the day?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He knew the spot.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I waited trembling.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I will be 64.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was very sick at this time too.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

When she asked me how she looked .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Ive learnt so much.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

What did i know ?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Put me off passion for life!!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I couldn’t, believe it.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My family never makes their pension either.

Im still living with it.

Comes on , in middle age.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She found it foreign!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But, we were locked up after school.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She loved him until the end.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why did i forgive my father ?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I don,t even have a pension.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My life is so biszare .

I said to her

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We were not on the streets..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

This is soul school!.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

So whats the point in blame.

Especially a lifetime of it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I have no regrets .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She married twice! .

I write beautiful poetry .

It was going to be , some day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I could never make a relationship work though!